Pdoc today, cannot get SH out of my head. Feeling a bit low too, but Im hoping that it is situational. I dont know how the appointment will go, Im nervous about it but thats not unusual for me. I just really really hope I dont give into the temptation of SH before I see my pdoc, that'll be a ticket back to hospital. Money is a real issue too, at this stage I cant afford to see my T on thursday. Im stressed about that, which perhaps is what is fueling the need to SH.