So, I wanted to update what was going on because I need to tell someone.

I spent the weekend away with a few of my friends, my boyfriend and some of his friends my son and his girlfriend, the hotel rooms were in my name and on my credit card I had one rule and one rule only, boys and girls didn't share.
I offered nicely for my sons girlfriend to stay with me and she agreed the day before we left she said absolutely not so I moved her. It was myself and two friends in one room, and 5 girls including my sons girlfriend in another. The boys all shared.

Several times I stated that I didn't care who hung out where but at bed time they went to their respective rooms, and everyone agreed. The first night was fine and everyone did their own thing the next day my son was in an accident and taken in the ambulance to the E.R. They wouldn't let anyone in the ambulance with him but he repeatedly said he wanted his brother with him who's pretty much like his father.

My boyfriend who is his brother was heartbroken because he didn't have a way to the hospital and that meant he would be alone, My so called friends immediately took his girlfriend to the hospital to be with him and didn't invite myself or my boyfriend along. When we asked why they said we weren't his real parents and didn't have a right to be there and his girlfriend was upset and wanted to see him, our "Son" while true not ours has serious medical conditions that needed addressed and weren't because his girlfriend knows nothing about what they mean.

I repeatedly tried to call my son and so did my boyfriend we also texted and he never replied later we realized that his girlfriend had traded him phones while he was in the hospital and none of us had her number, she also spend the day posting things on his facebook wall under his own name and changing his pictures and signature on his phone.

I let that go and when he came back to the hotel had a big dinner for him, he came and everyone ate he said he was going back to his room to lay down and I agreed he should. The next morning I went to his room to check on him at about 7 am and found his bed empty when I questioned where he was all the guys said he'd just left but I had my doubts, later two of the girls in my room confessed that he'd spent the night in his girlfriends room with her. I was mad and asked who knew and how long and they said that everyone knew but nobody wanted to tell me because they didn't see the big deal. I said that I was done and that I wasn't reserving rooms anymore if that's how it was going to be, other than my two roommates nobody talked to me the rest of the weekend because they said I was being immature.

Maybe I am immature but I had one rule, I was up front about it and the rooms were in my name, I feel hurt, and disrespected.

A few days later my son needed surgery and of course did not want me there but preferred his girlfriend, she cant' drive so he found someone else too and he needed my car I agreed he could use it. I don't mind that she went honest, but my car is new I've only had it a year and I baby it. When I got it back there was pepsi spilled in it, milkshakes all kinds of garbage and even fake nails that had been peeled off littering the back seat. I told my boyfriend and he said it was an accident, I'm sorry but I find it rude and disrespectful.

I have also spent the past month trying to get my son a sponsor for when he races his fourwheeler, this consisted of filling out numerous forms, sending in a riding resume', staying home for phone calls, being on the phone for hours, and reading contracts as well as faxing things at appointed times. It took a month but finally I found a sponsor, they agreed to a year long sponsorship.
While working on a contract I asked my son numerous times if he was sure about the decision, when the contract came I read it to him and asked again he was so excited he didn't really pay attention but he signed it and I got it to the right people.
Now, he's decided that his girlfriend is right and he should stop using my fourwheeler to race and get his own, normally I wouldn't mind but the contract is for the fourwheeler. I told him that it was too late and for a year now he has to ride mine because of the contract, but he refuses and has begun getting a fourwheeler ready to race. I don't know what the sponsor will do or what I'll tell them. I have tried talking to him but there's no point because he's decided now he wants to ride this other fourwheeler. I'm hoping that I can get him out of this contract but I bet there's a fight.

I just feel so fed up with it all, I'm tired of giving and giving and he just using me. I know he has a girlfriend and I'd happily make room in my life for her if she just showed me some respect. I don't know what to do or how to handle this but I'm no longer sleeping and I'm having heart troubles again. To top it off I'm still experiencing health problems that have me throwing up constantly I need not only numerous tests but I need to see specialists and at this time I have no insurance to afford them, I wouldn't mind dying from all this it's just I'm afraid he'll bring her to my funeral.

Am I being immature? should I just let it all go? or should I walk away and respect myself since he doesn't? I just don't know what to do anymore.