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Originally Posted by I.Am.The.End.
No one will reply and there's no point in starting a thread because no one will reply to that either…so I guess I need to find another place to talk to people or just get used to talking to no one?
I can't even get dressed today and go to the store. It's better anyway because that means hopefully I'll eat less. Or maybe just not eat at all for a while. There's really no point. There's no point to any of this. Why did I even wake up today? The world by its very nature mocks me and my existence. I don't think my "friends" in real life even know what hurts my feelings and it's not like I can say anything. I also like that no one is really all the concerned when I disappear or they haven't heard from me in a while. Maybe I should just keep to myself and see if any of them actually miss me. Until then, I can be bombarded by the media with pictures of couples and people who are able to put together a band. Because apparently everyone knows that having someone actually highly educated in music would be detrimental to a band. Especially if they write music and can play several instruments. No one in their right minds wants that. Not to mention that having a hot bad*** chick would completely ruin their image. People are so incredibly stupid!
But I get it world, you don't want me. For anything.
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Sorry I could not reply earlier. You can PM me if you wish to, i'll keep in touch.
As for your friends, I can't really tell. My friends, I can tell you tend to forget all my problems. I keep telling them the same things again and again. but they go back to square one after a short while. It hurts me very much. "You don't remember anything, do you?"
I can tell you, I'm not missed at all, the same friends who used me when they needed my help, now ignore me in my dark hour. Everyone needs a friend, and it's very hard to find real friends these days, at least that's how I see it. They only try to get in touch with me when they need me. All I can tell you is, you'll find a true friend someday.
I had one good friend myself, he never expressed his friendship, didn't talk much, didn't hang around with me, didn't even wish me on my birthdays, but showed up and helped me out when he heard I'm in trouble, and then disappeared without asking for my appreciation. I think he's a true friend. Unfortunately, he doesn't seem to be the same person anymore, maybe he has his own problems, but doesn't wish to share them with anyone. He has gone into a shell.
Don't let all this distract you from your musical talents, Maybe try to channel some of your feelings into your music? I know it's hard, I'm not saying it's easy.
I can play guitar myself, i had a buddy who did too, we could never get along. It takes incredible understanding between the members of a band, especially if you're aiming big time. It takes a lot of time for things to fall in place, methinks, finding an artistic direction that all the members of a band are comfortable with.
I also think some men are intimidated by women who are talented, they want the spotlight, but not everyone is like this, I'm sure.
I just wish my reply was of some help as I can connect with what you said. You can PM me if you wish.