I'm going to hold on until Friday when I see the new therapist/pdoc again. Maybe just talking to someone will help me to deal with it. I felt really depressed and sui this morning, but I pushed through, refused to entertain the thoughts, made myself go to work. Now I'm doing slightly better. I think I'll be ok, but I'm kind of scared. I'm trying to be nice and gentle with myself; e.g. not beating myself up for not being as productive as I'd like. Simply staying alive is an accomplishment sometimes. I need to remember that.

On the plus side, the hallucinations have calmed down, and while my thoughts are still disorganized, it's not as bad. It's just that the depression is worse.