This semester has been an absolute nightmare so far. In the two and a half months I've been in school I've been sick half the time, in the hospital twice, which caused me to miss a crucial due date for an assignment and might cause me to fail the class, I just lost one of my best friends in high school to leukemia less than a week ago and I just found out that the one thing that I thought would be positive, a girl I liked, not only lied to my face about not wanting a relationship right now, but has started going out with a mutual friend of ours. I've just been apathetic toward everything this semester. The idea of failing a class doesn't create the same visceral fear the same it did a couple of years ago. I used to be a major overachiever in classes until I burned out a couple of semesters ago. I even made the dean's list last semester. I don't know what's wrong with me, before I could do a weeks worth of homework in a couple of hours but now I can't bring myself to read a little over 20 pages at a time.