I used to read a lot of books...before that horribleness that is ptsd, now its hard for me to concentrate on reading like I used to. But I still like researching information and what not so I still read up on stuff...just have to take my time and not read too much at once or I miss most of what I'm reading.

And I know people with autism can have gifts, I just don't think I have any particular gift...maybe I have some skills in some areas but nothing spectacular. there isn't really anything I am exceptionally good at that I can think of. But yes it wont hurt to look into those books when I get the chance.

I find so far meds haven't really helped significantly...the valium sort of helps anxiety/panic and trazodone helps me sleep. I haven't had any luck with anti-depressants however and have just found they make me more anxious or wellbutrin makes it feel like I'm on a bunch of adderall(did take it recreationally a few times in the past) but without the euphoria so yeah just not much luck.