Definitely start with your brain is a rainforest then. It is an except from one of those books. I suspect you do but I get the impression you have been sidetracked in a number of ways. Trauma leading to PTSD; Recreational drug use (which I am not putting down. I did too and there are things about those experiences I wouldn't trade.) You're very intelligent for one thing. That is clear in your posts.

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