okay - let me try to touch this one..............

First - sorry that you are feeling so uncomfortable with parts of your life. Friend, boyfriends - those are pretty touchy areas. And I would guess that you have had (or will have) your share of crappy ones of each.

I also think you will find some great friends and I have no doubt you will find a guy who is completely wild about you.

I saw your pics and you are a very, VERY attractive person (no, I am not hitting on you). So you do not have to worry about that side of it. Now finding someone who will accept you for you.... just as you are - that is always the trick. But that is the trick if you have a mental illness or not.

I know my rambling does not "fix" anything. But please know that you are not alone in those feelings. You ARE okay. For real.....