They keep assigning us stuff in the liberal arts classes that upsets me. In one class, we had to imagine we were 80 years old and write a letter to ourselves about our lives. This topic is extremely stressful for me because thinking about the future at all is anxiety provoking. I decided to handle it by fudging the rules. The rubric didn't say that it had to be an inspirational letter or that it had to be "factual" in terms of how I actually foresee my life playing out. So I portrayed myself as an 80 year old fugitive from the law, wanted for internet piracy (illegally downloading pizza and kitty litter because of the invention of 3D printers), unlawful use of a time machine, and a suspect in the "mysterious" deaths of my five husbands. Did the teacher want a completely crazy, fictional story? No. It's not a creative writing class. But no where did he say it couldn't be fictional and if he is going to assign topics that are too personal and scary, I'm going to have fun with it as opposed to getting triggered.

The other class has us reading just depressing and triggering stuff. This one deals with a girl abandoned by her father and self harm. I was not literally abandoned by my father in the sense that this character was, but I can still somehow relate to a lot of those feelings and it is difficult and upsetting.

But music is great