Bill3, thank you for responding again.
I question it because it only lasted a couple of seconds or something? Because what if pulling my head away wasn't a clear sign? Because after hed pushed it in my mouth the first time and I moved away, he didn't carry on, even though he had just pushed it into my mouth... Because I don't remember all the details.
I don't know . I know it didn't feel right because I told my friend straight after, and he said it was sexual assualt then I just closed it off from my mind... And now... I'm really messed up because of it and I don't know what to do. If it was... I don't know how to accept it or move on because I loved the guy who did it, though I know now he didn't feel the same