i think its possible to be depressed and not much notice it. i think ive lived such a major proportion of my life depressed that it just feels normal. until i fall all the way, face in dirt, the really dark places, etc euphemisms for the "serious" depression.

thats really unfortunate vjdragonfly that you have to wait so long for your appointment. its so disheartening to want help so badly and get that kind of response.