Why isnt your t on your side? Or, why dont you feel like shes on your side on these matters? I think she should be. But i also know i yelled at my current t for the first three years because i didnt feel like he was on my side. It takes a while to form a good therapeutic alliance. Its also scary to do when you are used to working against a person, not with them. Im not judging - im trying to figure out where you are.