I am overwhelmed with life and tired of fighting. Just want to give up. I don't have the strength anymore. I feel like such a failure that I can't live a normal life and act like a normal person. I can't accept my life the way it is and look at the positive side. I can't see anything positive about my life. My therapist asked me what I am getting out of being depressed and negative and angry. She said I am getting something out of it that is why I am not able to feel hopeful about anything. That makes no sense to me. I am not getting anything out of being miserable. The only thing I'm getting is pain. Why would I want to hold on to that? She said I can change things if I want to. How do you change feelings? How can I stop wanting something, or being angry about something, or being afraid? How??? I'm causing pain for my bf. Every day he tells me he is stressed and overwhelmed and I know it is because of me. I can't stand it anymore. I'm tired of hanging in there.