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Old Mar 04, 2014, 07:52 PM
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She told me today that she wanted me to take a year off from college. We had previously agreed I could go away to college, but because I mentioned a deadline she changed her mind. I told her I wouldn't be happy just working a retail 9-5 job, she said, "you will be unhappy regardless." That really hurt me, and i told her so, but she said it was true. I am assuming she is talking about how I have let my depression run my life. It's true ill still have depression while either away or at home but what she has said to me, things like you make everyone miserable or I am unpleasant to be around really hurts me deeply. I want nothing in the world than to make people happy but I sure got slapped in the face by my mother. I thought we were close but i think we are too close. I am trying to grow away from her and she is smothering me by wanting me to stay around. But i am unhappy at home and want to give it a go away from home. If anything she wouldn't have to put up with my depression if I'm not around. Its obvious to me if I hurt her so much. Just feeling at a loss at to what to do, what to say to her, if anything that will make her open her eyes.
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