Hi again, sorry, just re read your post again. 2 years is a long long time to be depressed. have you tried asking your doc about your meds? considered tweaking/changing them? seems like something isn't working, right?

in case you are interested, I have tried lithium and epival in the past for "mood stablizers" - hated both of them. lithium I felt "shrinkwrapped". could not feel anything. sure, I wasn't sad or depressed, I just wasn't anything at all. I went off of it (unsupervised)/unwise, and had manic episode

anyway, currently, I take gabapentin and topiramate (Topamax) as mood stabilizers. they are antiseizure meds, but can work as mood stablizers. I also take an antidepressant celexa (citalopram) and Seroquel xr (antipsychotic) which my doc tells me is necessary to treat bipolar