I already know you are strong by making it this far . And I won't say it'll be sunshine and rainbows if you can hold on long enough because that would be unfair and not true. But I will say that you'll experience happy times in the future. You'll make new friends. You'll move out of your parents house and begin to make your own living. You'll learn more about yourself and see all sorts of things in the world. You'll find a new favorite restaurant. Meet all sorts of great people that understand you. You'll get your drivers license and learn how to steer in the snow. Get to order alcohol at an actual restaurant. Get hit on in a bar/party. Maybe get married. Live with roommates. Find people you love. Find people that make you so angry you want to punch a wall. Find more people who love you for just being you.

The worst part is deciding to keep living but I can say that there are quite a few enjoyable things in the future. It hasn't been a fun journey but in the end I think I want to be proud of the route that I took. And part of that is being able to say I didn't destroy my family and hurt my friends by choosing to end it myself.