I had off and on depression from the time I was a 6th grader. Always felt different from my peers. A lot of anxiety and shyness. Although the summer after HS graduation was party time, was hypersexual. Got married at 23, settled down ok. Minor depressions I never knew were treatable. Perked up every spring. My crazy year came when I was 43, two manias and two depressions. I almost lost my family and my self. That was the year I was diagnosed. Been wrestling with this beast ever since!