I kinda feel weird about TT leaving. I feel like I was justified in not opening up to her or relying on her at all and I worry that I will have an even harder time opening up to a new TT.

TT said I was distant and probably needed more time to open up. In the past, she said it would make sense that I wouldn't trust her because so many people have let me down or hurt me after I trusted them. I mean, I understand her needing to move on and not base her life around a client, but couldn't she have given me more warning? The whole time we worked together, she talked like this was going to be a long term thing like further down the road we will work on all these things and address all this stuff and go through 12 week long trauma work stuff and then she just... leaves. Maybe something just suddenly came up that she wasn't anticipating but I feel like she would have said something in her personal life suddenly changed, causing her to have to relocate if that were the case. She said she had been meaning to tell me that she was leaving. Why would she let me plan out how to connect with her and start 12 week long stuff with her only to leave? How can I trust that any new therapist won't just do that? I always just assumed she was not going anywhere. I just... I don't know.