My therapist made a suggestion, it goes like this; "tell your therapist you missed her while she was gone on vacation." We were discussing relationships and reaching out. Umm...I feel like this is boundary crossing for me in a MAJOR way. Nope, I could never do that, that's a big no for me. It's not a big deal but I'm very uncomfortable with this idea. I don't even want to talk to her about this. I'm not going to do that. No, no, no. I can't believe she even believes that that's ok. I know, maybe I'm overreacting, i just feel like that's a lot to ask from me and now i feel like an @$$50le! I feel like such a jerk and at the same time I'm mad at her for expecting me to do that. How does that help me in therapy? Wth is this??? I'm so confused and I don't know why but i just feel so vulnerable and threatened by this. I cannot even talk to her about this, it's just too much right now. It feels like a bomb just got dropped on me tonight. I feel so anxious. And then i keep trying to figure out why it's pulling such a reaction from me. I feel So stupid and dumb and ridiculous. I hid it well in session but next week she's going to bring it up and I don't know how to talk about this. I don't want to be mean. Why am I like this?