I haven't been diagnosed anything except having depression and anxiety. Some things with BPD fit but I dunno. I feel like I'm always depressed but for some reason I can always sideline any emotion and even the depression, and force myself to to things. I always just want to give up and do nothing but next thing I know I'm up, dressed, and leaving for work.

I'm not saying I'm always productive at work. I just do the bare minimum to get by, but I just go inside myself somehow and block everything and isolate myself further. I don't wen know if this makes any sense