Honestly, it sounds pretty bad right now. If I were you, I would seek a professional before it gets worse... before you don't care if you get better or not. That is a scary tipping point. I'm glad you aren't quite there yet. Keep posting if you can, we'll worry about you.

I'm sorry about your friends and bf, but at this point, you are probably beter off standing on your own (since they left you when you needed them most). Once you are well again, you can address those relationships if you feel like it.