And that's the thinking that made me go against my initial thinking. But I've thought of so many other reasons why she wouldn't understand that I get why she doesn't understand... and I can't hold it against her.

Thank you so much for your response and understanding . It has encouraged me to re-examine how far I've come since beginning treatment and the fact that I can't stop now although many will not understand. Unfortunately I will have to redefine our boundaries... for my own wellness .