Welcome!! Thank you for sharing.

I'm sorry you have been through so much, but it does sound like you are the stronger for it. I say, use that strength.

While you thought this woman made you happy, it wasn't real for her. That is a very difficult realization, but you MUST see that being happy is POSSIBLE. You deserve better than that woman! She wasn't worthy of you or your love.

It all seems so desolate right now, but opportunity is around every corner if you are brave enough to look for it. Stay strong until you can. There is happiness and the RIGHT woman out there for you.