I don't think I'm psychotic or schizophrenic, but I wasn't sure where to post this thread. The thing is, I don't really believe anything. Like the stuff I learn in school, how do I know that's true? Take history, for example. How do I know that the war of 1812 actually happened? Because my teacher told me? I wasn't even there. I suppose what I'm trying to say is that I'm an agnostic about lots of things. I don't have hallucinations, delusions, etc., though. I have had an experience with psychosis, when I was super depressed. I was shaking, sweating, and hiding under a blanket listening to crazy music wishing the world would go away, and questioning what was real and what wasn't. (but I had also been off my anti-depressants for a month or two, which may have been a factor). I guess my question is: am I too open minded? Is this normal? Is this okay? Am I prone to psychosis in the future because of my beliefs and my brief history with it? Or is it mostly genetic? (I don't think I have any psychotic or schizophrenic relatives). Any similar experiences?
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