Hi.....welcome..
I just answered another about my experience, I'll recap...
At it's worse, I stared down a bottle of pills. I couldn't see any other way to get away from the incessant "brain pain". I was in bed all day. I didn't care if I ate. I simply didn't care about anything. I wanted to not be here.
But I have kids...It still was immeasurably painful and I wanted oblivion.
Finally my husband dragged me off to the doctor...I would not have gone otherwise.
I started on anti-depressants and, through trial and error, started to climb out of the well.
Now I liken it to a graph with 2 lines...the flat one is my standard. If I fall below that, then I need outside intervention to get me back...above that standard is a wavy line...it's my highs and lows. Don't get me wrong, even the highs are not like before depression hit me, but it's a little bit of sunshine. And the lows still suck, but I know that they won't last long (if they do and I get too close to dipping below my standard, at least I am aware of it and can help myself.
I hope it helps you to post here....people here understand.
ETA did I misunderstand the question? If so, I'm sorry
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