I am on Lithium and do not have it. In fact, I am about to start my first painting project - paint a wooden table red for my balcony. I have already bought exterior paint at OSH, and am waiting for a raining spell to end so that I can begin working. Can I then ask you questions?

I had horrible general malaise on Topamax and didn't refill the prescription after the first month.

What is your dosage and have you considered lowering it? That would be my first step if I were in your shoes. I lowered Topamax to the smallest dose before discontinuing. I had malaise even on the minimum dose.