Welcome bigbear68!!! When I was first diagnosed, it all added up to me too. I still questioned the diagnosis for some time, partly because it is a hard pill to swallow. Research and learning about your condition is a great way to go. Having ppl to talk to and help when you need it is good. I find the bp forum to have a wonderful group of ppl to talk to. Seen those days when all I can do is lay in bed, not fun at all . Anyway, keep posting.