In some ways I am, I have no vehicle, he took mine. I know I've got to stop this. I just finished hanging up on him because he asked me for gas money. I need a vehicle to get groceries. If I use some other way, it costs too much.
But my head needs a break from his manipulation. I said I'm not stupid, but I don't wise up too fast. I pay for gas when I use the vehicle, I even go so stupidly far as to give him groceries when he has nothing. He just got diagnosed with type 2 diabetes and I want my son to have a father. I know I have to stop, my mind is so full of anxiety right now, I can feel it in my whole body. I know what he did to me. I said somewhere on here that this is my life, what anyone said to me is in the past, but how do you get rid of deeply ingrained thoughts? I don't want friendship, I don't want him to listen to my pain anymore.
He wouldn't even keep up with the child support, not fully...
I can't stand the man. I guess I'll spring for a taxi.