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Old Mar 05, 2014, 04:01 PM
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Long time ago, I was in a kind of retreat. In there there was this mom. She was talking to a religious older woman that was a kind of leader. She told this older woman: "Oh, I would like to have your patience, this is a gift I do not have. I wish I have it for my children". And the older woman said "Gift? Patience is not a gift. I was not born equipped with it. It is a practice. It is like the muscles of bodybuilders."
I was very young at that time and I thought that was a message for me, too. I was having a hard time as I had just acquired my disability. I started practicing it, and my patience improved considerably. Then, I started to work in education and for a long time I was able to exercise my patience. It was a virtue other people would notice I had.
But now it is different, I am having a hard time to exercise patience. I lose my temper, even my judgement is sometimes wrong, all that against my patience. I feel this is related to my depression and anxiety. I do not like it because I know as I am depressed I am demeaning patience from others, but I am not able to be patient for them
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Hope is definitely not the same thing as optimism. It is not the conviction that something will turn out well, but the certainty that something makes sense, regardless of how it turns out. Vaclav Havel
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