Bill3, I think I am . Thank you so much for your help, you've been so helpful and you have no idea how much it means to me. Thank you!

nicoleflynn, thank you for replying. If I was told that, I would definitely think it was wrong, I think I try and justify it because I loved him... I am really sorry that happened to you. I will try to find a way to learn to live with it and I really hope I can. Thank you so much for your help. It really means a lot!
Hugs xoxox