OMG! this subject is really starting to effect me...I feel shame deep inside at my own emotional unavailabitliy!...down to simple examples of just sitting in an arm chair and my dog lies looking at me adoringly...wanting me to notice her!...I dont its like I'm stuck...I can only stare...thats what its like..whenever people are "alive" around me I freeze..I may be interacting with my kids then its as if a part of me notices this happening and freezes...I turn of suddenlly....its like i have this heavy weight inside of me that I can't get past!..