Todays sessions was intense, moving, and bonding, and too many feelings and emotions for me, way too fast, way to soon, not her fault, but my own, maybe transference from my old t, but is that even possible this soon?

Today, I started telling her about my week, and a conversation I had with my brother, which led to many triggers for me. That led to her wanting to her asking me to describe the triggers. I described some , then dissociated a bit, we did grounding.

Then I showed her some grounding skills and other pics I drew, and she asked if she could sit next to me, while I interpreted my drawings, I said yes, I felt a bond, we laughed and talked.

I drew a pic of my interpretation of the song comfortably numb , and she loves that song, she took out her phone, and played the song in backround while I spoke of my drawing.

we both love deep meaning songs, she says I have strong positive vibes. And as grounding skills the last ten minutes of session we will listen to music together.

All this sounds great right? So why do I want to run and hide?