My closest friend and roommate of 5 years has noticed that this year I've been acting differently. At first she'd try to do things for me--make me meals, check in on me, plan fun things for us to get out of the house, etc. Though I appreciated the gestures, I felt like a charity case and just wanted to be left alone because I was embarrassed and frustrated about how I felt. Especially because I've known her for a long time and know that she is someone who doesn't really understand psychological disorders because she is a very confident and carefree person. Soon she began to pull away and be in the house less. So I talked to her--told her how I've been feeling and apologized for how it is affecting her. She said she was worried about me and has talked to others about it, and appreciated me talking to her. That was a week ago. I thought things would be better, but now I almost never see her...I feel abandoned, but is that fair of me? In her eyes I am not trying to get better. Or maybe she just doesn't know what to do. I am worried this will ruin our friendship and I'm not sure what to do. Any thoughts?
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