Gimme a big hug......

It's all so true...you are at such an incredibly difficult age....

I echo what was said....but don't sink too low before you ask for help....

Volunteering can make your soul sing (my daughter volunteers at a bunny rescue)....consider it.

And make a list (or have in your head) whatever makes you smile and laugh. Youtube videos, favorite comedians, anything fun that engages your brain. And when you are at your worst, indulge yourself with those things. Your thoughts won't be able to dwell that way.

Keep posting. Have a good rant or a good cry here. Anytime you feel the need.