Hey, don't feel bad, you're not a jerk. She probably is trying to push your buttons, b/c she 'does' want to get a reaction from you...that's why you're in therapy, right?:} I know exactly what you mean-I feel like I can't trust people-definitely not a man. People like to break promises a lot:{. I feel like my T knows about my "transference" {lol} and he tries to run away from me like I'm ugly and I feel unwanted pretty much. He pretty much hates me. I can't ever tell him or I know he'll be mad and transfer me. Your therapist sounds like she cares about you-she wouldn't try to get you to talk if she didnt. Good luck next week! It will be okay!