I 100% relate. My husband has nerve damage that had been giving him back pain for about a year. In this year we have had to go to the ER once a month because he was in too much pain. I get unbelievably angry every time. I can't stand hearing him complain about his back. I don't want to hear about the pain he is in. I get blind with rage when he mentions it. And it's always been like this - every time he is in severe pain I get so pissed when we have to go to the ER I hate myself.
I'm not sure why it bothers me. I guess I feel he is just being weak. Which is largely what I feel about myself when I comes to my mental pain so I'm probably projecting.
Anyway I just wanted to say I understand.
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Of course it is happening inside your head. But why on earth should that mean that it is not real?
-Albus Dumbledore
That’s life. If nothing else, that is life. It’s real. Sometimes it
f—-ing hurts. But it’s sort of all we have.
-Garden State
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