i want to find out whats wrong with me, or if theres even anything wrong at all to begin with. i dont know what to do, i dont know who to talk to and i dont want to talk to the people that i keep gettin pointed to - i cant force myself to open ul to somebody chosen for me, i refuse

i just want womeone to tell me what to do, i need answers. Sorry for this everyone, im just..so confused. I don't want to keep on with this anymore, really. i just want someone to tell me whats going on with me, because i havent got a clue.

What do i do, please