You are----but here is the thing on a day to day basis which feels better to you----which can you live with?

So when I first tried going off the meds I got angry and highly anxious and it was terrible it was like I had to decide between being sick and being on the meds forever or feeling bad and to me what I was feeling was worse than the hallucinations....it was the weirdest thing. I ended up going on an intermediate dose not 5 not 10 but 7.5mg and I stayed there until pdoc convinced me to try again. So here is my suggestion---try a higher dose not as high as the shot which may have been up to 10mg worth but try 5 or 6 and see if you get more functional. I know you have more haldol in the house so experiment a little and see what you can tolerate there may be a dose where you are less paranoid but also not as sleepy as on the shot but you have to remember to take it. You may not get everything you want like on 7.5 I still had sexual impairment and reading difficulties but I felt less like I had to be constantly engaged and I lost weight so that was enough for me. Hopefully you can find something you can tolerate...