I am considering being off regular meds but with a stash of Zyprexa to take only when I feel extremely elevated. I have not done it, but thinking about it. But I have bipolar without psychosis - in that one real mania episode I had - like you, I was almost 43 - I almost had a movie playing in my head, but I knew it was because of a heightened state of creativity, I.e. I didn't believe that the movie was real, I just wished I had a budget and skills to actually produce the movie. You, on the other hand, believed that you were archangel Michael. Note though that not sleeping for several days can turn a well person psychotic, so if there is a way to stabilize you enough for you to sleep regularly, you might never become psychotic again.

Bipolar is a strange diagnosis in that one episode of mania, without depression, qualifies, and yet the name of the condition is Bipolar - both poles.

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