I'm not medicated, meds had the opposite effect on me, they made me "more" bipolar instead of less, although the pdoc certainly thinks I'm medicated. Lol

That being said, I took one of his benzos during a rough time when an episode was nipping at my heels, and it helped to calm me, and also gave me good quality of sleep! Real sleep is always good for me, especially when an episode is lurking, helps reset my brain and brings things down to a more managable level.

Soooo, I'm considering actually using his Klonopin. Not daily like he instructed, but as a PRN (as needed basis) to help calm me through the storms.

I'm no doctor, and don't pretend to be one, and while I'm no fan of AP's, I certainly understand why they would prefer to tranq us, although I personally don't want to be tranqed daily anymore. Like I mentioned, a deep sleep does me wonders, but I don't think there's any pdoc who actually treats bp on an as needed basis. If you're lucky like some members here, they'll agree to an AP on a PRN basis, but would instruct you to take the MS and AD's daily.

As mentioned by Hammy, you'll have to know yourself very well in order to nip an episode in the bud, so a heightened level of self-awareness is key. You'll need to be able to identify your red flags and triggers, being a control freak doesn't hurt either. Lol, I should know.

Anywayyyy I didn't mean to ramble, I'm on an upswing, can't shutup and am kinda jumbled right now

to PC I hope you enjoy it here, lots of friends to ride along on this crazy-making rollercoaster!

Ps. You are soooo lucky that you don't suffer from the depression part, I envy yooooou!

Pps. Your post wasn't boring at all!

I'll shut up now!