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Originally Posted by Atypical_Disaster
I'm trying to hold it together but I'm not doing a good job. Racing thoughts and voices really don't mix well. I figured this was going to happen. I'm so frustrated and disheartened with myself.
They're telling me I deserve to die because I'm worthless and good for nothing. Ugh.
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I'm sorry you're struggling. My voices used to tell me that too, but they're still refusing to talk to me, though that has it's pluses...
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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic
Willow that fishing around for compliments is actually because they want to assess how you think things are going my T would always ask me how the last session went at the beginning of the next. If you think they did something unhelpful you have to tell them and they will try another approach or whatever....it's actually a goods thing...therapy is all about you they should be asking. Also I know my affect was a little flat so it can be hard to tell with that...maybe you're in the same boat?
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It's annoying, is what it is! I don't like being put on the spot or hurting people's feelings, so I have to grasp around for something positive to say. I'm not putting up with that at the end of every session!
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Originally Posted by punkybrewster6k
Wow. You have been busy!
Glad you updated us on whats going on!
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Thanks Punky!
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Originally Posted by punkybrewster6k
I have to make soap today I've been putting it off all winter but I need some batches for the farmers market so I have my fat sitting on the wood stove to melt in a big pot.
Should I make tea tree, peppermint, Nag Champa or lemon grass first
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Wow that sounds cool! I fancied making soap a while ago but I've no idea how to do it.
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Originally Posted by faerie_moon_x
Sorry I haven't been on much. I've been so sick, but hopefully getting better.
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Hope you feel better soon!
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Originally Posted by punkybrewster6k
I dont think anxiety meds will help either. She was doing so good after coming out of the hospital in October on the thorazine.
Cognitive function was great she wasn't seeing too many things and wasn't hearing too much it just seems like now paranoia has set in.
Last month her Pdoc upped her Thorazine to maybe help with the anxiety and paranoia but it seems like it is not helping. She is not functioning well at all.
On one hand I want her to work through this and do reality checks. This is something that will probably be there for the long term and she needs to know how to work through it.
But then I don't know how much I should have her take on without more help I just don't know what to do.
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to you both
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Originally Posted by punkybrewster6k
oMGosh. Every day I have the same conversation with her. I break it down just as you explained. I do it everyday because she forgets.
She has a therapist but the therapist doesn't seem to think there is anything she can do to help her. There are no child therapist that know how to work with schizophrenia. Very frustrating. I even mentioned to this therapist that if she could please work with Bean about reality checks but she just does not understand. She has now changed her schedule and we'll be seeing being for 1/2 hour every two weeks instead of one our each week. I'm disgusted. I'm trying to find a different therapist but they're very few of them around here.
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Keep doing what you're doing Punky, but she also needs a more available T.
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Originally Posted by punkybrewster6k
Bean calls it anxiety but I'm beginning to wonder if its her being paranoid and not understanding the difference between being paranoid and having a anxiety. Does that make sense?
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What is the difference??
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Originally Posted by Gr3tta
A bug walkingacross my desk turned into a tiny bone bird and bit me on the finger.
...so i think its going to be a long day.
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Hope you're ok Gr3tta.
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Originally Posted by Sometimes psychotic
Newtus---part of it is possibly not having the psychosis under control. For me I actually found in my phone a mensa app and my IQ just after being stabilized from psychosis was 106----after a couple years on the meds 130 and now 140 which is normal for me. So yeah the meds took off 10 points but the psychosis dropped 34 or possibly more while I was actively psychotic and I had to recover from that over a few years...
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What is this app? I paid for an educational psychology assessment, but it cost a fortune, so I'd be interested in monitoring my IQ using a reliable app.
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Originally Posted by Atypical_Disaster
So I called my pdoc and she clarified that she doesn't think I'm manic. She thinks I just have schizophrenia, i called her because I was wondering about that and yeah she said my agitation can look like mania but it's not. I'm so relieved.
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So definitely not sza? Why did she add the mood stabiliser then?!
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Originally Posted by jeppys
I have been in psychosis for over five months now. it has been the roughest road of my life. there is something that I found in psychosis that is worth all of the misery and suffering, love. I need to see it through, naturally.
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Today has been quieter, thankfully. My niece & nephew came over, which wasn't as stressful as I feared. Thankfully my anxiety/paranoia (what's the difference??) about somehow contaminating them with my badness isn't as strong as it has been, so I was able to mostly enjoy my time with them.
Then I tried to help my sister with her maths homework, developing a pounding headache in the process. She's so frustrating to help cos she's got attention probs and impulsively shouts out random answers which are completely wrong. Also I don't think she's very bright, and I think the education system in this country is going to the dogs (unless you can afford private school). She doesn't understand the relationships between numbers, she doesn't know her times tables, she doesn't understand units/tens/hundreds...I could go on! At her age I was doing long multiplication in my spare time just for fun! And I'm not
that bright in the grand scheme of things.
It's just so frustrating, cos she's messing about and doesn't seem to care that she can't do it, and I'm trying hard not to damage her self-esteem by giving her the impression that she's stupid, cos she's not, her IQ is average. But how can a student of average intelligence be performing so poorly?! This is why so many people are leaving school with no/hardly any qualifications. My 17yo brother left school without maths, English & science GCSEs! My 26yo brother left without them too, but passed them in college 2 years ago so he could go to Uni.
Sorry, I'm ranting
I don't agree with private education as I think that everyone should receive a good education regardless of money, but it seems to be the only way to get a good education nowadays. There's a programme on TV called 'are you brighter than a 10yo?' where adults compete against children in general knowledge. However these children must be privately educated cos they know things I don't even know, and they are leaps and bounds above my 11yo sister in a state school. Anyway I'll shut up now...
Good news though, I've dropped a dress size off meds!
*Willow*