With my bipolar/depression (depression being more frequent) I have just recently noticed a pattern with my moodswings. I'm starting to notice that when my Moods change, my Thoughts do too. Like, stable; things are my normal- I like/love all the the things I "KNOW" I did/do.
depressed; I dislike/doubt /distrust & am suspicious of all those things.
Manic; Everything pisses me off! I become enraged, potentially violent. It all turns to hate. And the only thing that matters is "setting everyone & everything straight" be it ending a relationship or telling someone off without any regard to their feelings or the repercussions of my actions or words.
Only to realize when I'm stable, that what MY MOOD dictated me to do, wasn't what I really wanted at all. I always used to think that "what I was thinking about" caused my moods to change, not the other way around. I'm now in the process of training myself to think about what's important to "stable me"when I'm in an episode in an attempt to try to gain more control over my behavior.
Could your mood be controlling your thoughts /feelings too??