Thanks everyone for your feedback. Yes "popsie", I have changed my meds 6 times in 2 years. Been in hospital 4 times for suicidal thoughts. Just feel like my life is over and there is nothing I can do to recover from the losses that occurred 2 years ago. It's all circumstantial bull**** and unfortunately they don't make a pill for that. I guess I haven't lost all hope since I am trying to get some insight from the forums on psychcentral.