I do see it in her direction. Obviously, I don't understand all of her decisions but I do know that she has to do this and she's enjoying it for the most past. It just makes me feel like I was never enough, you know? Like she couldn't wait to get out of the relationship and go and party and flirt and all that other stuff. It just hits me hard some days that she's not here.

I used to blame her for being selfish alot, and it was hard not to talk to her and end up yelling or something equally unfair. But thinking about it makes me see that it's good for her, and this is good for the both of us. I do have to learn to take care of myself, and her the same.