Okay, I'm probably blowing the "same thing might happen with other potential Ts!" thing out of proportion, probably because this experience really shook me and is sort of making me want to stay exclusively with current T since that would never be an issue with her; if we ran into each other, she would simply ignore me and I would go about my day without worrying about it.

But I feel so upset about this person who I have to see every week knowing this "secret" about me - I know she won't tell anyone; I know she's a therapist and she's definitely heard worse; I know she's not judging me. It's just that to the world, especially in this group, I am competent, confident, and in control. And not the sort of person who needs a therapist to work out attachment issues stemming from childhood maltreatment. I feel exposed and unclean and I don't like it.