Is it possible to be having a mixed episode for as long as 2 months? I feel like for the past 2 months I've simultaneously had a lot of energy and depression. I often feel wound up and agitated. I feel really stressed out and like I'm going to cry at any moment. I'll sometimes have a few hours where I feel pretty happy and energetic and then, out of nowhere, I start having suicidal thoughts again. The constant "upped" feeling combined with depression and hopelessness makes me feel like I'm going crazy. I've also started overly self-medicating with sleeping pills. I even take them in the middle of the day sometimes to help me calm down.

I want to start mood tracking because I've been told it will be helpful, but I can't do it because I don't know whether to put down that I've been manic for the day or depressed. What do you put when you're both?