I'm really lost with this...one day I'm depressed and in bed for 15 hours and suicidal...the next I'm way up again rearranging my whole basement and making art out of tool shelf things...next day I'm pacing around for hours and driving back and forth across town 3 times listening to music to calm myself and waste time...Now I'm sad again but not suicidal (yet).

I've thought about it just being normal emotions. But there isn't anything happening to cause them. I just wake up and I'm either "hot or cold". I hate not knowing what I'm gonna be like the next day.

I really have a hard time believing that cycling that fast is the same as bipolar disorder. That may sound insensitive, but I don't mean it that way. I just don't understand it all.