Hi Wildflower. I understand your situation. It sounds very similar to mine. I am 3000 miles away from any close family members and have not made any friends where I currently live. I moved for a job relocation but as depression sets in I also find it very hard to socialize. I am also an introvert and was shy as a kid. Although I thought I had grown out of the shyness, it seems like it has returned with this latest bout with depression. I avoid talking at work as much as I can.

At home I feel more social but only when my depression isn't bad.

I think the best thing for me when I am depressed is to socialize because it does make me feel better but when I am depressed the last thing I want to do is socialize so it's a constant battle but it can be won.