((((Winterrose))))
I can relate. When I wake up the morning and it's a different (much better) universe than the one I was in the night before, I feel like I must be crazy. I've sort of tried to look and see if I had a lot of stress and anxiety the day before, but it never seems clearcut. And it happens in reverse too--I will go to bed feeling fine, and wake up and feel like I've descended into hell. I refer to it a the trap door springing. I talked a little about this in a previous post. Years ago, it seems to me that I could connect up hypomanic episodes and depressions to what was going on in my life. Now, just as often, it seems to me, the episodes come from nowhere. I wonder if on some subliminal level I am still having stress and anxiety, but I don't experience it until it reaches some kind of tipping point and depression or hypomania breaks thru.
Crying usually helps when I get depressed. But if I am very depressed, I don't cry-I can't.
I also can get really down on myself and think I just don't have any moral character or I am lazy or I'm a whiner when I get depressed. I guess I have to be thankful for my rare "normal" periods to reassure me.

Years ago a therapist talked to me about maybe trying not to struggle so much when I get depressed. I think she was referring to how self-hating I became when I got depressed. Like your signature line, I think she was trying to tell me if I accepted my feelings, it might help. Well, I will stop rambling now.
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