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Thank you for that post Zinco… took me some time to absorb it, but yes… it could be that.. or just an ingrained part of me that fights.
Over the years that side has been battered down, but I think it is part of my make up… reminds me of the song by Simon And Garfunkle ‘I am a rock’.
As a child I was a battler… not in the physical punching sense… but I would brush myself off and keep going regardless of bouts of illness, bullying (home and at school) or tricky spots I landed myself in.
That child is long long gone, but there are ‘times’ (chronic depression falls knock that all to crap) the focuss comes to the fore and the walls go up.
It’s these times that I want to try to keep hold of for as long as I can.
Not going to fool myself though, depression comes in cycles for me… so, I have to remind myself of those times and what tools I used to get back to here… and likewise, when I’m in those cycles… I need to remind myself of what can be if I just ‘ride it out’.
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Independent Mental Health Advocate (IMHA): UK
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